I haven't felt like writing for a couple of days.  Wednesday, Rob was in so much pain that I stayed by his bed all day.  He had 4 times the amount of one pain med that they normally give to amputees, and 3 other types of pain meds and he was still in agony and not sleeping.  (This was due to the high alcohol consumption for years.)
It was so hard.  Thankfully his precious nurse let me stay with him all day.
 
Yesterday, I assumed he would be a little better but still in pain, but when I went in the first visiting hour, he was in a deep sleep.  I took that chance to go home and rest and rest and do things I haven't been able to do for four weeks.  It was marvelous.
 
They have been concerned about his kidneys. That is what the anti freeze destroys the most.  This morning I called and it seems daily every concern for his kidneys are less and the lab reports are better.  His Creatoneen I am sure I spelled it wrong, is totally normal today, not even high.  Every day his BUN comes down like 15 to 20.  The kidney doctor has taken him completely off of dialysis.   Yeah GOD !!!
 
He is only on the breathing machine because he is on such heavy meds.  They will be pulling those back starting today and wean him off the ventilator. The horrible phlegm that was pouring out of his trach has almost completely quit pouring out and making him cough.
 
He is back tolerating food through the stomach tube again.  Yeah God over and over.  Yeah God!!!
 
One problem remains.  The surgeon was very concerned with the muscles in his leg.  He says while there is blood flood, they might be deteriating or destroyed and need a higher amputation, maybe in both legs.
 
I have made a choice to believe God no matter what.  I could never stand to put Rob though this again in only 5 days. This is his second amputation surgery already in a week and the meds work less and less each time.  Next time would be worse.  I will make them wait until he can think and let him decide if he would choose to have more surgerys. 
I am speaking LIFE to the muscles and tissues in Rob's legs.  The surgeon talked like there could be several more surgerys. 
 
I don't think God raised Rob from the dead to go thorough this agony again.  Please don't pray any soulish prayers and write to counsel me.  This is horrible.  I am standing on the word of God that, ' He that began a good work in you is able to complete it.'
 
When I get conflicting counsel, it really tears me up.  Just pray and pray for a miracle one way or another. God is in control.
 
Thanks so much for your support. I am trying to relax, let God drive and not wig out if the nurses won't let me in when I think he needs me.  I am trying to listen to God and be obedient and trusting.
 
God Bless