I can hardly believe I have made it this far. I do feel like I have been pregnant for 3 years. I know I have
only made it this far with the help of my parents. Gabby and I came to stay here on March 30, 2006, so we've been here
2 months. My main job now is to eat, rest and incubate. I can't do very much because I tire so easily. It's
hard to get out of bed, get out of a chair or just plain stand up sometimes. I really don't think I would be to
this point without the loving sacrifice of my parents. It was a big change for them from coming from Texas
for the winter living in their 5th wheel to coming home and caring for 2 extra people in their house. I told them that
they are going to think it's really quiet when we leave.
Mom and Dad pretty much take care of Gabby. I step in when I can and feel up to it. She really loves her
grandparents and they are really close. She hasn't seemed to mind being here, but she does LOVE it when we go home.
We got to spend the night there Thursday night. It was the first time she got to sleep in her new room and new bed.
She really loves her room. She went and got in her bed before it was even time to go. She drank her milk there
while daddy read her a story or two. She is a happy child anyway, but Thursday night and Friday morning at home she seemed
REALLY happy. She does seem excited about her new baby sisters.
Brian has also had huge adjustments. I don't think he enjoys living the bachelor life again at all. I imagine
the house is pretty quiet and lonely, even if he does have 2 of the poodles there with him. He will have another
big adjustment when we come home, because then there will be 4 more of us. He never seems to sleep well when we
aren't home.
I am feeling really crowded and cramped in this body....it sure feels like we are running out of room. One of the girls
keeps pushing on my right hipbone and ribcage...not sure if it's the same girl or not. I can't seem to eat
much at one time...just running out of room. I did gain 2 pounds in the last 3 weeks. Gaining some is better
than gaining none or losing, but I do think I should be gaining a little more, but what can I do?
This pregnancy has been pretty lonely. Yes, my parents are here most of the time, but I just can't get out and
go. In fact, I haven't even driven in over 2 months. I did try Thursday night. I got in the van and drove
a few blocks uptown to get some ice cream. It was scary...not sure why...I have always been the driver in the family
and really don't like being a passenger, but I just didn't feel like I should be driving. I do occassionally get a call
from a friend or two, and have had a few visitors, but really not that often. I guess when you are out
living life, it seems like time is scarce, but for someone who is pretty much housebound, I have all the time in the world,
although most of it is spent resting. Pretty soon this time in my life will be over and I will be busier than I have
ever been. I won't have time to feel lonely. I do keep praying for the Lord to send me a tangible friend.
I do have some really good friends, unfortunately they don't live anywhere close where I can actually see them regularly.
I don't just want a friend, though...I want the right kind of friend. Someone who we both can be a positive encouragement
to one another and can share woman and motherly things and just share the daily things we go through. Someday I
will have a friend like that....I will just keep waiting.
Well, I'm going to end this here...I don't seem to have much concentration lately.
